There's a lot of awful bullshit going on all the time and I fuck up a lot trying to get through it. In the end I act like a cornered little rat who let society and capitalism and all the overwhelming ills of being a human get too big for me to handle. Our identities can get manufactured and marketable and the more you slink into the system of working just to live the less you feel like you're a person worth paying attention to or worthy of an iota of self-respect. So we get depressed, lonely, deep into self-medication, defeated, hungry and easy to push around so we can give up easier.